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March. It's March again. I'm lonely. I'm okay with it. I can feel myself slipping back into my nostalgia phase of sepia memories with orange highlights and blue undertones.
We're crossing the bridge. I feel like Daddy's little girl again. I have returned back home. Pushed, not ripped out of your arms. It's March again, and I'm feeling empty with no purpose; a cloud that doesn't float quite so high or carry enough rainwater for any real intention.
Look over the bridge. Remember the glittering rust piles? Right now I'm feeling the old urge returning back. The yearning to lay down among the rusted bits of metal, the dusted chips of broken glass, and decay quietly along with everything else here.
It's March again. The trees are painted impasto style, not quite brown nor green. Maybe leaves will bloom again. Maybe everything will want to be alive again. It's March and I'm okay. My brain is clogged with memories; March fourteenth, the morning after my life changed. I stood along the rust piles sifting through eroded metal pieces with Dad that morning, thinking about- STOP.
That doesn't exist. It's March again. Remember what it's like to be alone? Loneliness in March was beautiful. I loved it solely for the reason that it severed my inhibitions and fueled my artistic drive. I felt all alone in the universe. I was content with dizzying myself in turpentine fumes and oil paint and being locked in an orange world. Remember orange? It was my lonely color, the color that I painted everything in after he left and I didn't get a chance- STOP.
It's orange. Let's go back to orange. Let's be okay. I am okay. It's March. I was only dreaming of summer. I woke up in March. But summer will come again.
We're crossing the bridge. I feel like Daddy's little girl again. I have returned back home. Pushed, not ripped out of your arms. It's March again, and I'm feeling empty with no purpose; a cloud that doesn't float quite so high or carry enough rainwater for any real intention.
Look over the bridge. Remember the glittering rust piles? Right now I'm feeling the old urge returning back. The yearning to lay down among the rusted bits of metal, the dusted chips of broken glass, and decay quietly along with everything else here.
It's March again. The trees are painted impasto style, not quite brown nor green. Maybe leaves will bloom again. Maybe everything will want to be alive again. It's March and I'm okay. My brain is clogged with memories; March fourteenth, the morning after my life changed. I stood along the rust piles sifting through eroded metal pieces with Dad that morning, thinking about- STOP.
That doesn't exist. It's March again. Remember what it's like to be alone? Loneliness in March was beautiful. I loved it solely for the reason that it severed my inhibitions and fueled my artistic drive. I felt all alone in the universe. I was content with dizzying myself in turpentine fumes and oil paint and being locked in an orange world. Remember orange? It was my lonely color, the color that I painted everything in after he left and I didn't get a chance- STOP.
It's orange. Let's go back to orange. Let's be okay. I am okay. It's March. I was only dreaming of summer. I woke up in March. But summer will come again.
Literature
november.
the day i was born was not a day of sparkling stars and soft-spoken lullabies, of rose-colored memories and warm autumn hearts. time did not stand still, but instead slipped between shrill cries and bitter words. but i would not know; i was not there. i cannot remember my first breath, and i cannot remember what i saw the first time i opened my eyes. but perhaps i never really learned to breathe perhaps my eyes never opened after all.
when i turned five, i discovered the art of being alone.
i learned that there is no celebration song when you are twenty-three hundred miles from where you belong and your family has fluttered off into
Literature
november, again
sometimes, i wonder
what life would be like
if i had never taught
my little sister how to
tie her shoes, or
if my eyes weren't brown.
maybe i would be
someone else:
the anti-me.
something, anything
better.
this is when i'm a house of cards -
52 bones, shivering.
one blow and i'm on the ground:
like,
realizing too late that the tulips
i planted last september
won't ever grow,
or realizing too soon that i have never
been in love.
Literature
march.
i knew march.
birds chirped
beneath
my hands,
their bones
snapped
like ashen twigs.
i remained bare,
purpose not suffered
by adornments.
may was the missing
piece, his face
purple, touched
too hard by the angels.
i did not understand.
but i knew march
and it was enough.
be my silence; my sanctuary,
she sang.
but i could not be brave.
my arms did not reach god.
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